Saturday, 3 November 2012

sneaks in at the back...

Hello there. It feels like ages since I've been on here. I was doing two jobs, a course, looking after two little children and an elderly mother in law. Things had been difficult at work too. My manager, who I was very fond of, retired and one of my colleagues passed away after a long battle with cancer. I was getting more and more exhausted and depressed and was fighting off coughs and colds, but kept on soldiering on.

As soon as half term arrived, I got sick. Proper sick and I just couldnt get out of bed. Not exactly great timing when you have to be responsible for a 2 year old and a 7 year old for a week. Luckily my friends and my husband rallied around and took the kids out as much as they could and I stayed in bed. After a week I still wasnt better and got some antibiotics. Almost a week later and I still feel a bit rough but am definitely on the mend.

I didnt feel like blogging because I wasnt feeling happy. Each blog I read made me feel as though I wasnt cool enough, not creative enough, not popular enough...just not enough. Even thinking of little things to share became a struggle.

I started to wonder whether I should give up blogging if it was making me feel this way. But I really dont want to do that. This is a little space where I can create some time to be me. Not particular cool, or popular or creative, but just me.

I have started to read a few blogs on living a simpler life, with less possessions, spending less money and enjoying the simple things. The song I walked down the aisle to was "All I need" by Air. We didnt have an expensive venue or flashy reception. Our wedding car was our yellow vw camper, covered in balloons. We then took our friends to the pub and had a BBQ in the evening. It was my happiest day ever. I want to try and return to that philosophy of living simply and having fun.

Anyway, if you are reading this now, thankyou for bearing with me and I hope you will stick around x


  1. Was wondering where you were - I missed you. I'm so sorry you have been poorly. And that you've lost someone close to you. You've obviously had a really rough time recently.

    If it's any consolation, I have felt exactly the same on many occasions with my blog. Stick with it, I've loved your posts. Have you seen JustB Blog school? It's full of good suggestions to give you ideas (and not about spending money or being super cool - ha! they wouldn't let me join if that was the case). It's run by Pip of

    I'm really pleased to see you back. Hope you are starting to feel a bit better too. Believe me I've been feeling crap for ages but after antibiotics and a course of steroids I seem to be picking up a bit. We'll get there together! x

  2. Thanks Jen. You are so lovely. Mwah xx
    I like the idea of blogschool but I'm not sure I have enough time. Will have a little look though. Thanks for the tip.

  3. Hi, I'm sorry to hear you have been so poorly and you have been having such a hard time lately. I hope you stick with the blogging, it should deffinately be your little place where you can just be yourself.
    Your wedding day sounds wonderful. Hope you feel all better soon. xx

  4. Thankyou Caroline. I'm not going to put myself under any pressure, just blog for fun when I have the time and the energy :)